Vicki
I have been coming to this site on and off for about three years now,
and every time I find something that speaks to me in some way. I find
myself laughing raucously at the Nice Guys section (gotta love those
put-downs!), nodding fervently at the Pukefest - to which I am proud to
have contributed some of my own mini-rants! - and, more recently, being
moved to tears by the many heartfelt tributes to Bonnie, a lady who I
would have felt privileged to know, judging by her witty writing and the
impact her loss has had to the community here.
In terms of personality, I don't let the possibility of someone's 'bad'
opinion of me influence my actions and choices. My view is that I am the
only person I have to answer to in my mind, so why should I care what
other people think? I make mistakes aplenty, am very often wrong, have
probably even more faults than I am aware of, and can admit it and stay
cheerful!
I have firm principles, which include good manners and a sense of duty -
but not at the expense of my own health, happiness or sense of
self-worth. I have found the dignity to overcome being bullied and
ostracised at school; the good sense to realise, BEFORE it became a
serious illness, that my extreme diet-and-exercise regime was not only
dangerous but was making me unhappy and alienating my family and my few
real friends; and the maturity to find my mum lying as if dead at the
bottom of our stairs after yet another drinking binge and not flip out -
in fact, to put her in the recovery position, get an ambulance called
and then be my dad's main emotional support through many painful months
of hospital visits and rehabilitation. It has been a long, hard trek to
get over it all and start being a Heartless Bitch in EVERY sense of the
word - I was stuck in the 'victim mentality' for a long while - but I'm
heading in the right direction.
If I'm pissed off, people tend to know rather quickly. People rarely
tend to cross me twice. I don't raise my voice - I don't need to and
besides, it lacks dignity. I don't like conflict, but sometimes it is
necessary. However, I am too lazy to carry a grudge far without due
cause, and am gracious enough to accept a genuine apology. As long as it
doesn't happen again...
Yes! I want to read more from Real Life Heartless Bitches
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