Suvi
I was born a Heartless Bitch. Of course I was immediately labeled a Bully. World just didn't have any other label for a little girl who was willing to make a statement. Still doesn't.
To my shame I didn't transform from Bully to Bitch without a hitch. There was a seven year relationship in between. As luck would have it I am not wired to constantly keep myself in check just so my spouse could feel better about himself. It turned out to be impossible to keep a Bitch in a closet. I tried, oh how I tried, but in the end I had to come out, after realizing it was either that or start eating mind altering pills.
I have only myself to blame for my short stray in powerless make-believe life. I learned my lesson though and did not repeat it. Next time I was sliding into that familiar pattern I called it quits before we ever moved together. I have been single now for almost ten years, but on my own terms, by my own choice. I do just fine by myself and a companion to share my life will be a bonus, not a necessity.
I do take a dip in dating world once or twice a year. I don't waste my time on guys that trigger my warning bells. If something feels wrong, it probably is. I try to be brutally honest rather than sugarcoat myself, since I don't want to attract certain types. It is a constant wonder how simple honesty can be considered Bitchy.
Nowadays I feel only content when called a Bitch, since it reminds me what I am not and will never be again.
But why am I Heartless? I have no sympathy for repeated stupidity or for attention seeking martyrs, of either sex. If you really want my help, you got it, and I will scare your abuser away and help you find your own feet. But only this once. I won't teach you to hide behind someone else. I won't let you say twice it wasn't your fault. I won't be nice about it either. You show signs of mental growth after each personal disaster and you will have a lifelong friend in me. You expect me to be your shoulder to cry on after yet another avoidable mistake and I will leave you behind. No use dragging a dead weight that refuses to walk on its own.
Eager to join the ranks,
-suvi-
Ps. I truly live by my motto and almost lost my job for it! I told my boss to his face that hiring his underage unprofessional daughter in this situation would be considered nepotism by anyone, so please reconsider. My co-workers were too cowed to say anything aloud but were thinking of complaining higher up. I saved his ass; he hates me for pointing out the obvious.
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