Kim
Let's see: for most of my life I have subscribed to the "cult of nice", yearning to please, giving and giving and receiving nothing but scorn and disdain from friends, family and lovers.
So, I have ripped my nice membership card up in little bitty pieces, and chunked in the trash bin. I no longer tolerate users, abusers, exploiters and whiny, weak people in my life. I've taken responsibility for more than my share of wrongs (or pronounced wrongs) in the past and refuse to own up to something that is quite simply not my problem. Yes, I've had my issues with insecurities, anxiety and depression but I spent hours, days, months, years working on my crutches, dispelling my own myth than I'm unworthy, undeserving of the good things in life.
I like me, now, and I only allow those people who are decent, kind, and respectful to share in my life at my invitation. I've discovered peace, happiness and joy all on my own without the inclusion of a lover.
With or without a man, my life is tranquil and filled with joy. And, yeah, I would wholeheartedly believe that I could easily be called a "Heartless Bitch" due to my resolute character in not allowing anyone to treat me like a torn up doormat. I have maintained my gentle, compassionate nature but reconciled that I'm also a fighter against injustice (for me and others), and I have no compunction in giving a nasty, vile person a logical, reasonable, tongue lashing while restraining my fury with self control. It's taken quite a bit of practice to confront said persons, but once I began it's really easy to state (in a firm voice).."NO!"
Whenever a dude tries to chat me up, usually with effusive praise for my looks (as if I give a rat's booty what he thinks) and I explain to him that I'm more interested in a person's character than physical beauty, they all inevitably nod their heads in the negative as if there's no way I can have any depth and that I must be a shallow as they are. Whatever! Then I get the remark, "Why are you so angry?" I'm angry because you are pissing me off assuming to emphatically know who I am after five minutes of bullshit chatting!
That predominant attitude totally blows, ya know?
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