Lee
I had never thought of myself as Heartless. No, big-hearted,
great circle of family-among-friends, heck, we'd drop many a thing to help one
another out if any of us were in need... but I didn't take crap from
people.
Having been through enough abuse in my life, I can spot many a pattern from
a mile off. Not all, and some not right away, but damn, I'd had
enough. Recently a "friend" of mine from high school, of the male variety,
with a sense of privilege a mile long, decided that I was the perfect person to
dump his problems upon. Oh, how his marriage had failed. Oh, women
didn't understand him. Oh, I was the only one who'd give him what he
needed in terms of friendship... he didn't want sex, no. The subtext
being, of course, "I've been good, I said the words, can I have sex now?"
I could see where this would lead, the kind of one-sided abusive bull pucky
that was in store. I sent him packing. In a rather vicious parting
shot, he said I was a cruel and Heartless human being, among other less
flattering things. It being over the phone, I cracked a grin as he said
this.
Perhaps I am Heartless, after all. I won't let people take advantage
of me, and I know a line of crap from a legitimate need, as demonstrated in my
circle of friends (getting an antibiotics prescription filled when one's
disbursal from the school is two weeks away is a need; whining about how women
are awful creatures out to hurt you and how much pain you've suffered at their
hands, not so much).
I won't settle for a crap job, giving up my dreams, because society says I
should. I won't get married because that's "the next step." I won't
give in and have kids because our culture has a mommy fetish-- I'm not in this
life to please anyone but me. I demand equals in my companions, whether
friends or lovers, who are unafraid to be themselves, and who don't mask their
intentions in words they think I want to hear. And if this makes me a
Heartless Bitch, then I gladly accept the title.
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