Gillian
As a student at a Catholic, all-girls school since I was young, I am
constantly faced with either the "goody-two-shoes-Catholic-girl" or the
"whore-who-belongs-in-a-Britney-Spears-video" stereotypes. I have fought
for years against being labeled as either. Yes, I suppose I can be a "good
girl." I do my homework and work hard in school so I can go to a good
college and make my own career. I don't go out drinking because that's
what "everyone else does" and also because I prefer my brain cells intact.
I treat those around me, young and old, with respect when they deserve it.
But many of these "good girl" traits are what make me a Heartless
Bitch.
I'm not a Bitch because I play games with other people or lead men in
circles. I'm a Bitch (and proud of it!) because I think for myself and
never let anyone tell me that I cannot do something, merely because of my
gender. According to many young men and women I know, being both
politically aware and opinionated makes me a hardcore, middle aged feminist
who'll stay a virgin forever. Apparently, preferring 'The Economist' to
'Cosmopolitan' makes me a Heartless Bitch, rather than an assertive and mature
young woman. I'm a member of the debate team who cares about more than
dating and dances; to some, that makes me a loser. In my opinion, that
makes me a conscious individual with a hand in her own fate.
My Bitchy qualities have been shaped by family as well as my school.
I'm the oldest child and only girl in my family; I rule over my brothers with an
iron fist! Sure, most of their friends think I'm a Bitch, but I'd rather
be the Bitch whose brothers know how to treat all women equally and respectfully
than the spineless weakling who is casually walked upon like a doormat. My
mother is just as Bitchy as I am: she's opinionated and loud about it, she
doesn't let anyone subjugate her, and she tells me every day to stand up for
myself and for my beliefs.
Like most young women, I too am interested in boys; the key word is
interested, rather than obsessed. I currently do not have a boyfriend, nor
do I want one. I'm in high school; I don't need the stress of worrying
about a significant other on top of everything else I have to do. I've
seen my friends when their relationships are rocky: their wishy-washy, "poor me"
attitudes during those times make me more angry than sympathetic. Yet,
true to my Bitchy nature, I'll castrate any boy who thinks he can mess with my
friends (or me) in the name of fun or of making a "conquest." I refuse to
be objectified, like so many of today's women are. I wear makeup because
it is fun and I want to, I shave my legs because I like the smooth feeling, and
sometimes, I don't do either because it's too much of a hassle and because I
have a high enough opinion of myself that I don't need to.
I don't want to grow up to be a Lindsey Lohan or Paris Hilton. I want
to be the next Condoleezza Rice, Benazir Bhutto, Hillary Clinton, or Margaret
Thatcher. I don't want to be a parasite who has no ability to take care of
herself. If people think I'm a Bitch because I won't let them make me some
trophy to stand on a pedestal, then I embrace my Bitchiness! Frankly, it's
a better use of my time and way more fun to be that Bitch with an opinion and
the ability to stand up straight, to look men and other women in the eyes and
say, "I think you're wrong!" This is why I'm a Heartless Bitch. I stand up
for myself, I don't take other people's crap, and I make sure that my voice is
heard. I'm not insignificant and I refuse to let anyone think
that.
So, my fellow Bitches, I will leave you with this; "Two roads diverged in a
wood, and I- I took the one less traveled by; and that has made all the
difference." (Robert Frost) This is my favorite quote and I'm going to follow
his advice and go against the grain. After all, what Bitch ever
does?
- Gillian, Heartless Bitch and proud of it!
Country: United States
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