Alicia
Where to begin? About a month ago I broke up with a boyfriend of 4 1/2 years; since then I've gone through a much-needed transformation. The break up was not the only thing to cause my transformation, I also just graduated from college and I'm off in the so-called real world. The boyfriend was not supportive of many of the things I was trying to become immersed in, namely Feminism and Christianity. It is tough to be both a Feminist and a Christian, but my path of transformation has led me to a better understanding of how misogynistic religion is and how my relationship with God and Jesus Christ is deeply personal.
In College I discovered that I am a Feminist. Before then I could never put my finger on why I thought the world was a crazy messed up place for a girl like me. Now, four years later, I am happy to say that I am definitely a Feminist Bitch. The break up taught me that I don't deserve to take shit from anyone and why the hell should a boyfriend be giving me shit in the first place when I'm asking for peace, comfort, and support?!? I'm not here to bad mouth Mr.Ex, although he was a jerk and I'm glad to be rid of him. We did have our good times and times when I truly believed that I loved him.
I have officially entitled my summer "How Alicia Got Her Groove Back." I have never even seen that movie, but the saying just goes with what I've been through. I went from being shy and demure to talkative and, well, crazy. How could I not go crazy when I suddenly have my freedom back?! I cut and dyed my hair so I look fabulous. I started dating, both good and bad men (I've learned a lesson or two about the caliber of different men.) I've traveled, danced, sang really loud in my car, smoked cloves, decided I want to be a photographer so I'm hanging my pictures in a Turkish Cafe and I am starting a new volunteer job that I absolutely love. I suppose it is not going crazy, but suddenly realizing I have a life that does not include one guy and his needs. I just started training for the Americorps Victims Assistance Program. In a few short weeks I will be a domestic violence advocate at A Safe Place, a domestic violence crisis center. I do believe that I will often feel like a Heartless Bitch when it comes to the stories of domestic violence I will come by. And I do believe that as long as I make a difference in one person's life by doing this volunteer work, I will have succeeded in my yearlong volunteer job.
So there you go, in a nutshell, the story of a broken down, but not broken young woman who is trying to get by in a world that is telling me: "Oh, you're going to be working with victims, how nice, but why?" WELL HELLO WORLD, I see a problem and I do intend to try my darndest to fix it. I suppose that is why you can call me a Heartless Bitch.
Country: United States
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