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Well, might as well start with my personal life. I tend to be a loner, not because 'gee no one likes me', but because I choose it. I've got a few friends that I love as much as possible, but I like my space and make my boundaries known. I find most of the time I entertain myself more than anyone else could, and plus I get more done. I'm not unfriendly to people, though I've got a fairly fine tuned bullshit filter (honed through spending some of that quality alone time getting real with myself first of all) and can disengage myself neatly when a mass of it enters my sights.
As for men, I don't have one right now and I'm great with that. Sure I've been wronged, but hasn't everybody? I've watched my friends go through the ringer because they rushed into things needing reaffirmation. I feel sympathy, offer a word every so often of consolation but I take a lesson from it. I'm without one because I choose it. I choose it because I hold myself in high regard, and anyone I would allow that close to me has to be up to par in at least nine qualities out of ten (no one's perfect and it's ok as long as the important stuff is covered. If I'm doing what I need to do on my end of the deal, then I'll know that before anything heavy happens). Basically in social situations, I'm the funny one - almost one of the guys. This doesn't bother me, eventually I'll be with a guy with similar interests and values who finds that appealing, and I in turn find him appealing, so I'm not worried.
I have goals for myself, and am confident I'll meet them. My long term goal is go get into my state's main art school, so every day I try to hone my given talent into something better. My next step in achieving this is getting into the early-college admissions program where you spend a month in the summer there to see if it's actually for you. I've submitted my forms, recommendations and essay to a couple months early. I've been told this is an impractical dream, that I should go to 'real' college, be an accountant, go into the armed forces, yadda yadda. I take it in stride. I have to give myself this chance and since it's on my dollar I can keep trying until it runs out. I'd love to enter into the graphic novel scene, mostly male-dominated I know, but if I could get that far I know my Bitchiness (or maybe just self respect and negotiating skills) would get me the rest of the way.
Other than that I've got some fairly vocal opinions about things, don't mind sharing them but that's for another essay.
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