Ashley
Hello,
I'm a Heartless Bitch because I don't believe I inherently have the right
to rely on anyone to help me solve my issues, and I don't believe anyone has the
right to rely on me as a crutch and/or act as my psychiatrist. I've always been
labeled 'too intense' or 'not a worthwhile human being' (both are actual quotes
from friends of a guy I dated) because I'm a woman who has her own goddamned
opinions and is not afraid to stand up for them, and I expect the people I'm in
a relationship with to do the same and not rely on me for a soul. I'm fucking
tired of guys AND girls labeling me as some freak of nature because I don't
particularly like romantic comedies, laugh when I hear the stupidity of
some girls' 'love' stories, and wonder why the hell the guy no spine thinks I
should treat him with respect when he doesn't act as if he respects himself. If
you rely on me for everything, are unwilling to set boundaries in the
relationship, and give me license to rule unconditionally, how can I respect
you? I don't want anymore guys like that.
In my past relationships, they've mostly been the 'nice guy' sort. I
was always dissatisfied with these guys who would give all of themselves to me-
everything, their love, opinions, will, and soul, and then they would wonder why
I'd jump back in disgust and usually end up breaking up with them three weeks
later. Of course, the guy and his friends would promptly label me a Bitch or a
whore, and of course trying to explain why made no difference. I want a man who
can be a real person, does not 'love' me because I have issues he wants to fix
(what an insult!). I want someone who is himself and not a compilation of
everyone else around him, and who looks at me as a person and not some mystical,
alien creature who brings excitement to his non-thinking, nice 'life'. I am not
a fucking mental Spark Plug Excitement Barbie.
And if someone does love me, it will be because of who I am as a whole
person, not because they want to play doctor and easily mold themselves into a
specially-made cast for me. Body casts are for broken people...it's the other
person who needs the cast so maybe he can become his own person and stop
spewing the opinions and wants of others.
I used to get upset when people said things like the ones in the first
Paragraph - I actually cried! Now I take it as the highest compliment. To those
people: "You don't approve of me? Good. Cause I'd go shot myself if you did. Now
get out of my face before I cause your brain to explode by making you think for
yourself. You hate me and 'my kind of woman'? Awesome. I would bother hating
you, but I only exert that kind of effort for actual human beings. I've wasted
enough time on you. Have a horrible, empty life.*wide, pleasant
smile*"
Country: United States
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